Green is
the color of my devil,
It's not
that he is always evil,
It's not
the wind's fault that the boat is shaking,
It's
actually the misaligned sails' making…
The
permission i have given to the weakest
thought,
The
permission to be heard and acted upon without being fought,
This
permission is shaking the ship's fulcrum,
Not
allowing the conditions to be set at optimum,
Conditions
that allow for the divine seed to grow,
Conditions
that will make life effortlessly flow...
Can feel
the resistance within me to play the angel,
My bad
experience of ego's dangerous angles,
But
Look around and feel the moment my friend,
It's only
a mental role play to make life's choices bend,
Approach
each moment, revering my mortality,
Invoke
Shiva to destroy all that's mine, with brutality…
Surrender
my friend, surrender, for it is the only way to go,
Intoxicating yourself will only make the inner confusion grow,
It messes
up each time with the vaayu* and the jal* elements of the body,
Leaves me
dehydrated and craving for making everything shoddy,
I really
want to escape this messy chaos in my head,
The
enormous weight makes me wish I was dead…
I was feeling like a
child left alone by his Guru,
I realize it was a
pot where victim consciousness brew,
For Nitin Bhaiya* had
clearly warned me of these,
The conniving victim
and the guilty thief,
Kaan Pakad lena* !
Did he say with a broad beautiful smile,
I still feel he's
here, but it's been quite a while…
I
am still that intense boy, with
intentions pure,
Why
allowing a thought to make my
dream vision obscure,
My ajna* can filter the thought at least,
And deny
it the opportunity to become a beast,
For me,
the focus of my time on earth is clear,
I find
happiness in moments when i have nothing to spare,
Nothing
to spare, for everything i have is thrown in the fire of life,
Lovingly
nourishing roots and shoots of lifeplants of me and my
wife…
Green is
the color of my devil,
It's not
that he is always evil,
For
now, off this bag of greens go,
I'll play
with the thoughts like a pro,
Dopamine
will be released through tick list and DC stars,
Ways that
relax and please without leaving their scars,
For me each moment
of Life is a perfect gift,
I've to smilingly surf over its troughs and
cliffs…
PS-
*vaayu - air element in the Pancha Bhoota
*jal - the water element in the Pancha Bhoota
*Nitin Bhaiya - Rishi Nityapragya from Art Of Living who was the guide in the Divya Samaaj Nirman Course I did in 2010
*Kaan Pakad Lena - apologise to the master for getting trapped in the mental mess and making wrong identifications and move on
*Ajna - The Third Eye Chakra on the forehead that is also the seat of Prefrontal cortex of the brain, responsible for rational decision making
