The Arrow Pulled Back

Green is the color of my devil,

It's not that he is always evil,

It's not the wind's fault that the boat is shaking,

It's actually the misaligned sails' making…

The permission i have  given to the weakest thought,

The permission to be heard and acted upon without being fought,

This permission is shaking the ship's fulcrum,

Not allowing the conditions to be set at optimum,

Conditions that allow for the divine seed to grow,

Conditions that will make life effortlessly flow...

Can feel the resistance within me to play the angel,

My bad experience of ego's dangerous angles,

But Look around and feel the moment my friend,

It's only a mental role play to make life's choices bend,

Approach each moment, revering my mortality,

Invoke Shiva to destroy all that's mine, with brutality…

Surrender my friend, surrender, for it is the only way to go,

Intoxicating yourself will only make the inner confusion grow,

It messes up each time with the vaayu* and the jal* elements of the body,

Leaves me dehydrated and craving for making everything shoddy,

I really want to escape this messy chaos in my head,

The enormous weight makes me wish I was dead…

I was feeling like a child left alone by his Guru,

I realize it was a pot where victim consciousness brew,

For Nitin Bhaiya* had clearly warned me of these,

The conniving victim and the guilty thief,

Kaan Pakad lena* ! Did he say with a broad beautiful smile,

I still feel he's here, but it's been quite a while…

I am still that intense boy, with intentions pure,

Why allowing a thought to make my dream vision obscure,

My ajna* can filter the thought at least,

And deny it the opportunity to become a beast,

For me, the focus of my time on earth is clear,

I find happiness in moments when i have nothing to spare,

Nothing to spare, for everything i have is thrown in the fire of life,

Lovingly nourishing roots and shoots of lifeplants of me and my wife…

Green is the color of my devil,

It's not that he is always evil,

For now, off this bag of greens go,

I'll play with the thoughts like a pro,

Dopamine will be released through tick list and DC stars,

Ways that relax and please without leaving their scars,

For me each moment of Life is a perfect gift,

I've to smilingly surf over its troughs and cliffs…

PS-
*vaayu - air element in the Pancha Bhoota
*jal - the water element in the Pancha Bhoota
*Nitin Bhaiya - Rishi Nityapragya from Art Of Living who was the guide in the Divya Samaaj Nirman Course I did in 2010
*Kaan Pakad Lena - apologise to the master for getting trapped in the mental mess and making wrong identifications and move on
*Ajna - The Third Eye Chakra on the forehead that is also the seat of Prefrontal cortex of the brain, responsible for rational decision making

Maybe Indians should Stop Killing their Daughters !



In the training at LBSNAA today, Dr. Neelam Singh from Vatsalya talked of the sex selective abortion in India and how grave the problem it poses for the social fabric of the country. Being a self proclaimed feminist, I felt a pinching sensation for some points yet most of the talk left me unperturbed.

Then, it was this image that caught my attention while it was lingering on the fold able screen.

I stared at it a little longer than usual. Gradually, it came in as a revelation - this realisation that almost all the states of the country have showed the trend of sex-selective abortion! 

 

Look at the colours of the map that shows the child sex ratio of 2001 (left) and 2011 (right) census. Wherever it has changed, it is for the worse. And it has changed a lot. Studies conducted by Vatsalya and other such commendable organisations repeatedly show the increasing percolation of this trend. This trend of "daughter aversion". The trend that shows how many people are ready to kill a child in the womb just because it's a girl.

It is flagrantly clear that the illegal practise of sex determination and consequent selective abortion is becoming more available. This also means that there is increasing demand for such services.
It means, as a society we are increasingly becoming more ready to kill an unborn just because we don't "prefer" a daughter.

It is an instance when the society has adopted a course for its own detriment. The PCPNDT Act is a mere attempt to arrest it through legal force. But what if the law itself gets dissolved in the engulfing mess of social acceptability and hypocrisy.

Yes, hypocrisy - that is why "creating social awareness" doesn't work. Daughter- aversion, coupled with the inherent hypocrisy in the Indian society makes people comfortable through self-denial. The rich blames the poor for the "missing girls". However, studies have shown that the households of top executives and businessmen show an abnormally low child sex ratio vis-a-vis their deprived counterparts.

Legal measures will only have a marginal utility in curbing this social trend of self-destruction.It's for us to understand and assess the consequences of our acts. It's time for us to decide, as Indians, that we will stop killing our unborn daughters!